Tangled Thoughts

sleenki:

daisyfairy:

my current mentality is “im sad and i hate myself but i have to get good grades”

I am sad and I hate myself and I have bad grades

So it turns out I have depression…..ugh…

People say they understand, but do they really?

I feel trapped in a tunnel. A dark, winding tunnel. Every once in a while I think I can see a glimmer of light - a way out. But it’s a cruel trick, and once again I am plunged into darkness.

Self-harm survey

1. How old were you when you started self-harming?

[] 8-9

[] 10-11 

[x]12-13

[x] 14-15

[] 15-16

[] 16-17

[] 18-19

[] 20-21

[] Older than 21

2. How often do you self-harm?

[] Depending on what mood I’ve been in…

[] More than once a day

[] Once a day

[x] Several times a week

[] Once a week

[] Two or more times a month

[] Once a month

[] Several times in a year

[] Once a year

[] I have stopped

[x] I am trying to stop

3. What method of self-harm do/did you primarily use?

[x] Cutting

[] Burning

[] Hair-pulling

[x] Scratching

[x] Interference with the healing of wounds

[] Hitting or bruising

[] Bone breaking

[] Hitting Head against walls

[] Binging

[x] Purging

[x] Starving

[] Biting

[x] Rubber band slaps

4. If You Self Harm What Sexual Orientation Are You?

[] Straight Male

[x] Straight Female

[] Bi-Sexual Male

[] Bi-Sexual Female

[] A-sexual female

[] A-sexual male

[] Homosexual Male

[] Homosexual Female

[] Transgender Male

[] Transgender Female

[] Questioning Male

[] Questioning Female

[] Pan-sexual Male

[] Pan-Sexual Female

[] Prefer not to answer

5. Which Of These, If Any, Are Something You Struggle With Along With Self-harm?

[] Anorexia

[] Bulimia

[] BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder)

[] Various Psychiatric Disorders (ADHD, OCD, Anxiety, Depression)

[x] None of the Above

6. Do You Think That You (as An Individual) Need Professional Help To Stop Self-harming?

[] Yes, The Only Way I Could Stop Is With Professional Help

[] No, I Have Stopped On My Own

[] No, I Have Stopped On My Own Though I Still Struggle Often And Sometimes Mess Up

[] I Have No Desire To Stop And Therefore Don’t Need Professional Help

[] Yes, I Have Stopped With Professional Help

[x] I don’t think I could ever stop without Professional help

[] Prefer not to answer

[] I don’t know

7. Are You Trying To Stop Self Harming?

[] No, And I Don’t Want To Stop.

[] No, But I Would Like To Be Able To Stop

[x] Yes, But I Am Not Doing Very Well

[] I Have Stopped But I Still Mess Up

[] Every Once In A While

[] I Am Completely Self Harm free

8. Does Anyone Know About Your Self Harm?

[] No. No One Knows

[] Some People May Have A Vague Idea Of Something

[x] Yes, But Only My Closest Friend(s)

[x] Yes. But Only Some Of My Family Member(s)

[] Yes, Some Friend(s) and Family

[] Yes, All (or Most Of) My Friends Know (I didn’t want them to)

[] Yes, All (or Most Of) My Family Know

[] Yes, People that see my scars/cuts

[x] Just a couple of people I trust

[] Yes, My Therapist, Psychiatrist, etc

9. How many years have you been self-harming?

[x] 1 or less years

[] 2 years

[] 3 years

[] 4 years

[] 5 years

[] 6 years

[] 7 years

[] 8 years

[] 9 years

[] 10 or more years

10. If You Self-harm, Were You Abused Or Neglected (either As A Child Or Later In Life)?

[x] No

[] Yes, I Was Emotionally Abused

[] Yes, I Was Physically Abused

[] Yes, I Was Sexually Abused

[] Yes, I Was Neglected

[] Prefer not to answer

11. Would you label yourself as emo?

[] Yes

[x] No

[] I guess..?

12. Do others label you as emo?

[] Yes

[] No

[] Some People

[x] I don’t know

13.What would others label you as? (chose all that apply) Please select all that apply.

[] Prep

[x] Goth

[x] Emo

[] Punk

[x] Nerd

[] Hipster

[] Pothead

[] Poser

[] Skater

[] Druggie

[x] Normal

[x] I don’t know

14. What is your reaction when you see other people’s self-harm scars/cuts/marks? (choose all that apply)

[x] I want to get to know them

[x] I wonder what they went through to feel that was a way out

[] I want to get as far as possible from them so no one will find out about my own self-harm

[x] I will acknowledge them as someone who shares something in common with me

[] I would never even acknowledge them

[] What happened for them to start cutting

[] Fear

[x] Interest

[x] Sadness

[] Happiness

[] Don’t really care

[] No reaction

[x] Surprise

[] Relief (that I wouldn’t have to hide my own from them)

[] Jealousy